I Think I've Been Here Before.

I'm worried Catface may be taking advantage of my near kindness by inviting some of its friends over in the evenings. I went round back the other night to find a group of about four cats race off as soon as I appeared, only Catface remained defiantly. Since then they've been gradually growing bolder, we may soon be swarmed by cat bastards. Should I get a dog? Or is that just a stereotype... There have been a few terrifying moments where I'm outside at night, I peer at an empty spot on the driveway, a moment later I look back to the silhouette of a cat with glowing demon eyes... Why do cats have glowing demon eyes at night? It's so they can scare the life out of me isn't it? It'd make a great album cover though... sort of.

I got a letter from Sarina Russo to come in on Friday and it's with a different person. So of course my first assumption is that I've been shuffled on to a different case worker, at least that's what I hope has happened. Either way it doesn't matter because soon I'm going to switch from Newstart allowance back to Youth allowance, time for some de ja vu.

I've been thinking long and hard about what I want to do next, I've decided to give university another shot. Forth time's the charm as they say. Well third time really. That's one of the biggest problems with keeping a journal, you sometimes repeat yourself. Especially the following statement, "I think I'm ready for uni this time..." But unlike those other times when it was different, this time really IS different. ha ha. It's true though, it just might not be true enough to make it work. But you gotta take risks in life, blah blah.

I'm not depressed, or overly pessimistic, I'm healthier, not abusing booze, yesterday was the two month point since my last drink, not partying in general and I'm getting better at scheduling my time to tasks and sticking to it, not as much as I'd like, but far better than before. Most importantly I've decided what I'd like to do as a career and know what I need to do to get there. Previously I chose subjects I thought were interesting in the hopes that I'd eventually want to pursue them as a career. So earlier today I enrolled in three subjects, I'll choose a further forth as an elective in a few weeks, not so important right now. I don't really want to get into what my plan is for the future, better to keep it in mind until things develop further but I will be going for an extended major in Political Science with a minor in Philosophy, so it has something to do with that.

As I said earlier I'll move back to Youth Allowance, which is less money, but with far fewer hassles. I'll stay with Newstart for the moment so I can take advantage of the employment training and I'll keep trying to get a part time position in Admin. If I have a new case manager then I'll enquire as to when the next Admin course is available. It's already been hard enough finding wok over the last few months, but now that we've officially gone into recession it's going to be much harder. Most people I know are either finding work impossible or their hours have shrunk.

If all that happens then I'd like to move out as well, go to one of those 30+ rooms share house places, like $80 a week, cheap as! If not, I've got a place here for at least another year or so until my parents move down to NSW. Damn money, you do make things a bit difficult sometimes.

I'd be interested in going back over some of my older posts from 2006 and 2007 to do a word by word comparison with this post, see how many similarities there are. Can't let myself think that way though, this is a different time and a different situation with a very different Andy, at least I think I am... Back soon!

Andy Scott