Truckin' Along.

4 a.m. Whether you're just getting up or haven't been to bed yet, it's not the most appealing time of the day to do either. As for me, I haven't been to bed yet which means I'll tell myself that I may as well just stay up all day to get a proper sleep tonight, that is until it gets to 6 a.m. when I actually become tired and wake up in the middle of the afternoon. Except this time I really AM going to stay up all day and get a proper sleep tonight, I swear! I sort of have to anyway, got a lot to do.

Interesting times, all I can say. I'm not stressed in any way right now, but I do spend too much time thinking about all the things I 'need' to do. Funny that, in order to build up my motivation and satisfaction levels I need to work my arse off until it doesn't feel like work. Probably why I haven't been sleeping much lately, I just keep thinking and thinking. Right now I've been focusing on four things primarily. Firstly making sure I do my daily tasks. Next, keeping up to date with the latest films. Then working on finding information for articles and other projects. Finally, securing employment. Honestly though, even though I'm happy to find work now it's pretty far down on my list of priorities. I'm far more excited about everything else I'm doing.

Still I really don't want to be doing manual labour for the Dole, which is what will happen in about two months from now when I have to return to full time job searching. Has it really been five months since I had my job capacity reduced? Amazing isn't it. Makes me glad I don't have to be Andy of the past anymore!

This weekend however I'm going to try to forget all that and take a couple of days to relax and contemplate other things. A task made much easier since I'll be at the Chenrezig Institute. It's a Buddhist retreat on the Sunshine coast, where I'll be popping a tent with Tanzih & Grisha. Going up Saturday, coming back Sunday. But during that time I hope to get in a lot of exercise, resting and therapy. I don't entirely know what sort of activities they're going to have, but knowing other Buddhist institutes I could make an educated guess.

But instead of doing that I'll just wait a few days and write something definitive when we get back. Well, just as I predicted, I'm tired enough now to get some sleep... If I weren't so happy about it I'd probably be annoyed. Have a great weekend all, talk when I get back.

Andy Scott